one:: old enough to know better, to young to care.

two:: the waves of pain that had only lapped at me before now reared high up and washed over my head, pulling me under. i did not resurface.
-bella, new moon

three:: i've heard that it's possible to grow up - i've just never met anyone who's actually done it. without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves. we throw tantrums when things don't go our way, we whisper secrets with our best friends in the dark, we look for comfort where we can find it, and we hope - against all logic, against all experience. like children, we never give up hope... -meredith grey, grey's anatomy

four:: i really just want to be reckless right now. break the rules, have fun, be happy.

five:: don't risk anything you're not willing to lose.

six:: i hate how everyone compares love to Romeo and Juliet. did anyone ever read that play? The two met for a few minutes, started getting it on a few hours later on a balcony. they married three days later. three days! keep in mind they hardly spoke then. they got married, did the big deed, and long story short they died. they were lust. i bet Juliet didn’t even know Romeo’s favorite color, much less his birthday. i don’t want a relationship like that. i want one where i know everything about him, one that i know is more important than looks.

seven:: i need a guy who looks at my face, not my body. i need a guy who accepts the fact that my legs are always scratched up because i play too rough. i need a guy who puts up with my ‘weeks’ and doesn’t start a fight about them. i need a guy who will shoot baskets with me and won’t cut me any slack. i .need a guy who is my best friend, someone i can tell anything to. i need a guy who will treat me right.

one:: i waited for the numbness to return, or the pain. because the pain must be coming. i'd broken my personal rules. instead of shying away from the memories, i'd walked forward and greeted them.. that was going to cost me, i was sure of it. especially if i couldn't reclaim the haze to protect myself. i felt alert, and that frightened me. -bella, new moon

two:: people are going to disappoint you, i get that.. i kind of expect that, but what if you wake up one day and realize you're the dissapointment? -one tree hill

three::i'm so afraid to be profoundly happy. happiness is like this frightening. they only let you be this happy if they are preparing to take something from you. -the kite runner

four:: music is a total constant. that's why we have such a strong visceral connection to it. because a song can take you back instantly to a moment, or a place, or even a person. no matter what else has changed in your world, that one song stays the same, just like that moment.

five:: everyone has their weak spots. the one thing that, despire your best efforts, will always bring you to your knewws, regardless of how strong you are otherwise.

six:: i want to feel something real. i want to be intoxicated by someone's very presence. i want butterflies and mixed feelings. i want confusion. i want the mood swings. i just want to feel.

seven:: never say goodbye. because goodbye means going away. and going away means forgetting. -peter pan

eight:: sometimes you need to put the past behind, the saddest aside. you need to forget everything you ever felt; your feelings, your thoughts. everything that was ever there. because you can't get hurt if you don't care.

nine:: that's the thing you never get used to it, the idea of someone being gone. just when you think its reconciled, accepted, someone points it out to you and it just hits you all over again.

ten:: i want someone to share my secrets with, someone to talk to late at night when i can't sleep, someone who feels comfortable around my family, someone to comfort me when i'm scared, to hold me when i'm sad, someone who doesn't need to say that he loves me for me to know it's true.

eleven:: and when i'm older and my little girl asks me who my first love was i don't wanna have to pull out the old photo album. i want to be able to point acorss the room and say he's sitting right over there.

twelve:: you know that point in your life when you realize that the house that you grew up in isn't really your home anymore? all of the sudden even though you have some place where you can put your stuff that idea of home is gone. -garden state